Today and the TEST!!

Well I took the daggone thing. I feel like I flunked it. Who knows?? The lady kept saying list details list details. But don't see how I would have had enough time to list as many details she was stating we needed to list. The other guy that took the test actually ran out of time on some of the questions. Ugh, have no clue. But the waiting game is killing me. All I have done is cry today. This is worse than when I took the boards originally. I need this job. I want this job. But it is all in God's hands now, nothing else I can do to help it along. My recruiter actually was the only one who has made me laugh today, when I told her she better break out some new jobs tomorrow cause am thinking I felled the test here is her reply, lol, "I'll keep looking but I'm sure you did ok. I asked the magic 8 ball and it said you passed- and that thing is NEVER wrong!!" How hilarious!!!

Men are driving me crazy. Ex won't get off his rear and get crap taken care of. An old friend who definitely has commitment issues, has wishy washied back in my life. And then a new man and I are talking but can I trust him?? I am so suspicious of all men after spending 13 years with someone who could stand right in front of me and actually lie about stuff. How do you get over that? How do you learn to trust again? How do you know people are actually telling you the truth?? I give up. Especially tonight. I personally cannot deal with any thing else tonight. So take care all and talk soon Donnna

Off to Greenville, today!!

Well I missed posting as I said I would on Friday, lol. Been kind of busy. Want to make something happen just start yammering about it, lol. Seems Wednesday after I posted my post, that I got an interview with hospital (Pitt County) in Greenville, NC. Those people probably think I am nuts because I thought this job came from the new agency I had looking for me a job and as it turns out it was my original agency. Thank my lucky stars. Did my little telephone interview and was "hired". But...... I have to take this PBDS test. It is a test that tests your compentency, critical thinking skills and overall workability. Well.....it ain't no multiple choice, you have to pull these answers out of the air. Which I am so terrified that I will not do well on. It is not that I don't think I "know" the answers, it is you have to be very detailed and thorough. As in how to you go home from work every evening?? Think on that for a moment and think out loud what your answer would be. Now if you said I get in car and drive home, you have flunked, lmao. What they are looking for is, I tidy up my desk, punch out whatever. Walk to my car, unlock the doors, get into the drivers seat, place key in ignition, crank car, place seat belt on etc etc etc. And me I do so many things in nursing really without thinking that I am not sure I can be so detailed. Ugh, and then Ms Perfectionist kicks in and really frets about stuff.

Next problem, lol. This Pat person who I forget what title she holds but is like an educator or soemthing. She "coached" me on this test. Well she told me that I would report to Trailer 3 on monday at 8 am. They should be forwarding you all the information with maps etc that we sent them. (This was on Friday while I was at house working and did not get back home to email till after 5 pm) Well....... maps that came with stuff does not have no Trailer 3 marked on it, doesn't even have an X marks the spot where I am supposed to report. Have absolutely no clue where I am supposed to be at 8 am tomorrow morning. I did with much studying find the Human resources building ( I think) so when I get to Greenville this afternoon, will have to cruise that area and see if I can find this trailer 3. The Lord has brought me this far, surely He can deliver me to Trailer 3. I sure help He clears my mind and helps me to relax and pass this test tomorrow.

I think my hormones are kicking in also. Good golly all I have done is been near tears for last 3 days. Either hormones or just stress. Wish I would menopause on out and that crap be done.

My headaches have been waxing and waning this week. I can feel that achiness in the back of neck but not that pulsating headache I had at the first of the week. Just tension headaches now. Planning on driving on down to Greenville around 1 pm today, should get there around 430 pm. Find trailer 3. Find store, lmao, and buy some "refreshments" and find some supper. Check into hotel that agency has me booked in and then I am crashing and relaxing for the night. Will need to get in bed early tonight so I can get up early in morning. I must say it is a bit strange to be traveling without my Fancy. I have missed her several times and wonder if she has a good home yet. I know giving her up was for the best. I really do, but doesn't mean I won't continue to beat myself up over it. And of course today will be bad having to say good bye to my Aggie. I love that dog more than life. She has been the best baby to me. And will miss Sophie too, but she done took up with Granny so she doesn't miss me near as much as Aggie will.

Well I am off of here for now. Plans so far for week. Test monday. Report Tuesday and if pass fill out tons of paperwork and get badge stuff like that. Then Weds, Thurs and Friday have orientation and classes. Hope all of you have a great week!! Loves Donna

Still at home

Well this just stinks. The agency I am currently with can't seem to locate me a position. So have an additional agency shopping around for me also. Hope to hear something in the next day or two or will be adding a third agency. I need to work and want to work. Not sure what the dang deal is. My original agency states it is due to the economy. Yeah, don't see that, not with all the nurses that are needed and all the sick peeps in the world. But being I don't know for a fact will have to accept it. To make matters worse, this past Sunday had an excruciating headache. Migraine big time. Unexplained and out of no where. Was sitting on the couch watching race and boom headache. Pulsating brain squeezing head ache. Mom came home after I had if for about 30 minutes freaked her out and she couldn't even drive me to hospital, had ambulance come pick me up and deliver me there. I so was embarrassed on that but sure did like the fact that 4 hours later headache finally eased up some and allowed me to function again. Not sure what is causing them either, because I had one Monday also. I am thinking has to do something with pulled muscle or pinched nerve somehow. Surely don't want to think the worst scenario (anuerysm). So for now trying to take it easy no lifting, pulling or straining and keeping neck in great alignment.

I know it has been a while since I been on here updating. I need to do better yeah yeah. Perhaps can set a goal to at least write on Mon, Weds and Friday for now. If I can keep to that then can add on other days when something spectacular, lol.

Okay for those who don't know I joined Match.com last month, due to the fact that I was extremely bored and extremely lonely parked up in the big town of Deming, NM, lmao. Anyway "met" one fellow from there, he turned out to be a dud. Was all "talk" but could not hold the muster. As in, scheduled us a meet time and then just didn't show up nor called no nothing ugh. Men!! Anyway we finally met on the Thursday and he was a great guy, but.... don't need to be played as second fiddle to his life. I understand crap goes on in peoples lifes but good golly if you are pursuing a woman, pursue her, lol. Well now yesterday, a fellow "winked" at me, winked back and voila now we are chatting on yahoo. He is nice, stationed in Iraq right now. We will have to see how things go though cause for those who don't know, last year was scammed big time by a jerk with a sob story. Believed it all hook line and sinker. I am too trusting of a person sometimes. There are other fellows chatting with me, but that one sounds most interesting. I find it cool to first be talking with someone so far far away, lol. Internet is so cool sometimes. And find it interesting talking to someone with a career in military. Nice to have someone standing up for our countries beliefs. Any way time will tell. He has 3 more months to "serve" then he is retiring. I sure hope that this is all on the up and up. I am so tired of liars and fake people.

Ex stopped by yesterday to pick up his mail at my Mom's. Laughed after he left he is so predictable and readable now that I got my emotions out of it. Only dang reason he came over basically yesterday was to let me know he got him a Harley. Like I care, lmao. Whooopeee!! And he can't pay his bills or have a place to live he is so broke, but can afford to pay for a harley what a ding bat!!

Talked to my friend Jackie!! Hey Jackie!!! Gosh miss her. Seems like only time I call her though is when I down in dumps. Got to be a better friend than that. They still in need of peeps in Farmville, just no travlers for ICU. Hey, if take some Med surg assignments and they don't kill me may have to dash up there and do one, just so can spend more time with her and all the people I met up there. That was some great country to live in. Just cannot afford to live there and pay for this dang old house here. Ugh!!

Am thinking going to have to do something with that house. Told ex he has 2 weeks to finalize loan or something. If he doesn't get a loan for it soon, I am going to have to contact real estate agent either sell or rent it. Which means major clean out still needed. And guess whos stuff going to be hitting the dump big time, lmao. He so ticks me off can't even get his junk out of the house. What can I say?? Knew he would be this way.

Well not much else going on. Going to go have lunch with Lanny. Hopefully hear an interview today and be ready to head off next week. Wondering about filling out for NV endorsement. Titan says has openings there quite often. That would be a cool assignment I think. Farmed out to SC, NH, VA and TX. I think that is all the places, lol. Surely one of them will hit.

Okies off of here for the day. Sure hope things in my life turn around. Take care all my friends and until next time!! Donna

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